I know I have been quiet and haven't sent out blog posts these past weeks.
Every so often, Travis and I take a 21-day hiatus with the Lord where we take time away for deep intercession and an open heart to receive God's instruction and directions.
During that time, I am "being fed" and refreshed in the Spirit and in the Word. But because that time is so precious, I write no weekly emails or weekly blog posts.
During that time, I felt very convicted. I am guilty of being "too busy"...a Martha Spirit where I am too work-driven and at times, I don't appreciate just the joys of sitting at the feet of Jesus:
The Bible Story of Mary and Martha comes from Chapter 10 of the Gospel of Luke. Mary and Martha, who are sisters, open their home to Jesus as he travels with his disciples. As Martha hurries to ensure the preparations, Mary simply sits at the feet of Jesus and listens to the wisdom of Christ. Martha then says to Jesus, "Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!" Jesus replies, "Martha, Martha, you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her."
So I want to do nothing else in this text but pray. Pray for you. Pray for me that we will just SIT and BE with the lover of our souls.
God, I invite you into this chaotic mess we've made! We've put other things first when we should be trusting you. We listen to our fears, our concerns, our anxieties when we should be receiving your peace, your love, your joy and your contentment. Help us in this, Lord. We are so ever-moving and ever-focused on the next assignment that we fail to realize that you are waiting for us to stop and spend time with you.
I am sorry that we are not making you a priority. I repent of thinking I need to get things done, of trying to complete my goals, of being too career-focused when my joy and my completeness revolves around dropping it all (all the balls I juggle in the air) and realizing what's most important. You, God, are what's most important and I need you more than anything else in this world.
I pray God that we will stop "feeding" others and be "fed" ourselves - let us focus on growing in our faith and maturing in you. I pray God that we will see and experience a different side of you. I want to see your heartbeat. I want to see your smile when I first wake up in the mornings. Like a good Daddy, I want to look at you when something goes right and when something goes wrong. I want to invite you into more of my life! I want this to be a partnership. I want to be able to listen to you and quickly obey. I don't ever want the distractions and busyness of life to get into the way of my relationship with you.
Thank you God for your understanding. Thank you God for your constant love and grace. Thank you God for being near us as we connect with you. Thank you God for teaching us how to have uninterrupted time with you every day where we can just sit at your feet, listen to you, talk to you and enjoy your company. Without you, I wouldn't be here. Let me open up this time to say, "Be my everything, Lord. With you, I have it all!"
I pray all of this in the name of Jesus Christ!
If you need prayer for anything, let me know. I would love to pray for you!